Yesterday was an absolute crash day. Up at 7, back asleep (even after showering!) at 9, up at 1, passed out at 3, up at 7, sleep at 11. Anytime I was conscious, I was not “awake”, and my legs felt unusually warm, tingly, and..they felt swollen but they weren’t. That’s not the interesting part though. I slept until 10, waking up about 4 times during the night, but every time I fell back asleep, I had incredibly vivid and detailed dreams. The kind where you can feel the texture of a piece of cloth when touched in the dream. I rarely have memorable dreams, much less ones as solid as these, but about 5 in a night, separated by waking? For me, that’s unheard of.
And even now, with a tiny sliver of brain function, just barely enough to write this, I feel that ache and bizarre sensitivity returning to my legs once more, and the mind clouds as unwarranted fatigue creeps through my body. I am forming yet another new strategy to combat all this bullshit, but still, I get…frustrated. Or pissed off.